Holy Week - Good Friday

 It’s crazy how this day seems all but good. They take Jesus to Pilate who can clearly see that He is innocent yet he doesn’t release Jesus(this is after his wife had that dream and warned her husband). I would think a ruler wouldn’t fear the uproar of some Jewish folks but he did, by washing his hands clean of whatever they did to Jesus he soiled them. At this point I would have been thinking of calling some angels to beat up everyone, it must have been annoying having to submit to lesser beings but Jesus stayed focus because He was doing this for me. I would have probably thought of backing out if not actually backing out and having God say you gotta do it. I can’t imagine the pain and suffering he went through. The Roman’s knew how to whip people, and we all know soldiers are trained for war. Having soldiers beat you up even now is crazy. Jesus was still thinking of others through this ordeal. No one talks about what His mom was going through, we all know how moms feel for their kids. She must have been shattered and yet Jesus says to her go with John and He tells John take care of my mom. He still prays for those accusing and beating Him. He has time to give eternal life to one of the criminals on the cross beside Him. Jesus was having an Uber bad day X10, on a normal bad day for me I try to avoid people so I don’t take out whatever is bothering me on them but He didn’t do that. I can’t imaging shouting “my God why have you abandoned me”. For the very moment the presence of God was not with Him, can you imagine living without the presence of God? That means you don’t feel hope, all the joy, peace, happy and all those things come from the presence of God. All I’d feel  is despair, hopelessness and all of that. It’s mental to even begin to imagine laying your life down for your enemies. Praying for them is hard enough but to die for them while they still acting like enemies yoooooo. I can’t even fathom anything He must have felt today, maybe He kept telling Himself it’s for the greater good. It’s our plan to conquer death, but one thing I understand is He truly loves me. It’s hard being like Jesus though I try but I still fail at it. People forget Good Friday is like one of the most important days in the world because of this sacrifice.

If only I had eyes to see and a heart to feel the way you do for us. My smile would be brighter and my thoughts would be clearer. I will never be Loved more that you love me and I will never love on that level but I will strive to make the You into me be most of me. My thoughts, my plans and my actions all surrendered because of this amazing Love, how can it be that thou my Savior would die for me. Amen