a song...........

I needed to do this n my ipod wunt cut it. So im listnn to a song by rise againt; satellite n the lyrics hit me, n as I decoded them it hit me some things can’t b understood if u think. U gotta let them hit u, just peep at these lyrics: gotta warn u I really dint xpress myself as much as I wanted too did the best I coud ryte now

you can’t feel the heat until you hold your hand over the flame(U cnt gt nothn from a distance u gotta get closer, u cnt b loved from a distance go in n b hugged feel it to get it)

you have to cross the line just to remember where it lay(if u r truly doing ur best u wud knw when to stop, u wunt have to keep checkin cuz u in total control)

you won’t know your worth now, son, until you take a hit(u will stand up n fight when u get hit, n prove ur worth. u might feel useless but trust me u will b missed when ur gone. So stop undermining urself, n dnt worry ul prove urself when ur time comes so dnt sweat it n never try to please others.Live to please urself n others)

and you won’t find the beat until you lose yourself in it(u wanna enjoy a song get lost in it dnt focus on to much if its gonna talk to u it will u cnt force it, u really wanna dance dnt think just go with the flow of the song)

you can’t fill your cup until you empty all it has(u gotta b empty to fill urself, dnt go into anything feeling smart go in as n empty book so u can get learned[used a big word there]cuz the wise knw u can learn from anything n any1]

you can’t understand what lays ahead,if you don’t understand the past(those who fail to learn their past tend to repeat its mistakes[so reflect on the past to determin ur future but dnt dwell too much on it or else ull get stuck there])

You'll never learn to fly now till your standing at the cliff.(ul never learn if u fear failure, think bout this failure is learning so keep at it[I havnt failed ive only found 10,000 ways it wunt work]so get off ur scared ass n take a risk)

and you can’t truly love until youve given up on it(Dnt go looking for love, let it hit u[cuz if u do it wunt b as special as when it catches u off guard]trust me that feeling, we’ll all just gotta zprience it 4 ouselves, n those who give up on it feel it the most cuz they have been without love they havnt that hole that has to b filled)

Truly a beautiful song (dnt care if I sound soft now) this just hits my soul. Check out the rest of the song rise against satellite. Jst listn to  it, It might b too loud 4 u but it will get to u listen with ur sou n not ur brain(gay & poetic, but kinda cool) this is nyc im nice ryte now I can write like 2 pages on this right now. Let this song hit u imma leave u with the rest of it n u imagine what it means, u decipher it n use that to move urself n positively control urself be inspired:

We'll sneak out while they sleep

And sail off in the night

We'll come clean and start over the rest of our lives

When we're gone, we'll stay gone

Out of sight, out of mind.

It's not too late,

We have the rest of our lives.

The rest of our lives

The rest of our lives

Because we won't back down

We won't run and hide

Yeah cuz these are the things that we can't deny

I'm passing over you like a satellite

So catch me if I fall

That's why we stick to your game plans and party lines

But at night we're conspiring by candlelight

We are the orphans of the Amerikan Dream

So shine your light on me (shine your light on me)

No we won't back down

We won't run and hide

Yeah cuz these are the things that we can't deny (shine your light on me)

I'm passing over you like a satellite

Cuz these are the things that we can't deny now

This is a life that you can't deny us now

Who do u call family

What is family. It's just like home, home ain't the house  u live in  it's where u live(role  with me here). If u think family is blood then ur mistaken, take it from me family ain't blood. Lets call blood a coincidence that we got the same blood flowing through ou genes. Family r those who r around u on the thick n thin of it all, those who wanna genuinely help u. Those who always got ur back on impulse, family describes those that r close to u n not those ur connected to by blood or stuff. I got me a few family members that ain't blood(shout out to big sis[yes g this means u]n I prefer em to quite a lot of my family members). Every1 needs family, u cnt go through life without em, u need people around that u love for the perks n their flaws.

      Cuz to b family is all we really got at the end of it all, cuz we knw theyr loyal. They hold u down regardless, dnt care what tym it is they always got u. Worry when u down, sad when u sad, pick u as they r rising, n look to u when they r falling. Family is deeper than blood n a harder bond holds em than anything chemists can cook up, with that aside their love guides us n keeps us strong cuz when u think bout it, u never wanna let them down for no reason. Il tell u the reason its cuz we hurt ourselves when we hurt them, cuz they bcome a part of us. Filling a void we never knw we had, but most importantly they r a sign of the hope we should have for ppl in this world, cuz if they exist the world is definately full of cool ppl(not all but hey if all ppl were family wunt b as special as it is)

A different kinda power

Is it true that the source of our weakness iz(not are[I use slangs but can still speak english])  our loved 1s, or r they really the source of r true potential.

    (trying paragraphs) Tell me u ain't never pushed urself to the limit for sme1. Regardless of how much of a douche bag they r we feel obliged to help, we can't stop caring even if we want too. Most ppl tend to do better or work harder when a loved 1 is involved. They make us work our butts off, hustle real hard to get them stuff n this may b looked at as selfish on their part but is it really? That feeling u get when u done did smthn for a loved 1 is priceless. That's true happiness knowing that u helped make some1 u truly care bout that much hapier(new word)(especially if they r a smiler or hugged[good heavens if they r both. U get a true smile that takes flows through ur body makes u happy, or a hug that makes u 4gt bout everything n 4that brief moment ur being hug ur life is perfect] good stuff)

     Life should b bout making those around u happy so u can b happy too, my depression is healed lyk that(make sure my closest smiler [the original smiler Aka my stalker] is happy)cuz the front I put up around most ppl comes down around her. sme dude d other day thought I was never stressed or depressed, n all I did was smile cuz I'm down 85% of the tym. Enof of that back to what I was saying the power of helping is strong, it gives u a new found strength n makes u feel good bout urself. Helping 1 person aday chases the shadows away(i will look so cool in a red hoody) ppl ain't weaknesses they r strengths n the more the love the more powerful the strength. So dnt feel u dnt need ur those u care bout near u, cuz they empower u. Ppl say they hold back when their l1s(stressful ryting loved1) r around but contrary to this belief u tend to go all out when u r protecting sme1. 

War! Huh-yeah what is it good for absolutely nothing