New Year, New Smell, New Tear.

So i wrote a dear John letter last year, so......... enjoy i guess.

Dear john,

As I write this I am overrun with emotion, the thought of you telling me you love me and would do anything to make me happy runs through my mind. You are a beautiful human being and a person like you comes around once in a life time. When you told me you want to marry me, it was a real heart warming moment especially when I realized a person like you wants to make me his life partner. I was touched in a way I have never been before, you made me feel like a princess whose prince had come to swoop her off.her feet. With all this going through my head writing this to you has become quite the challenge
Because I can't get married to you, I'm sending this to you to let you know that I am ending things with you.

I am a free spirit and I'm not ready to be caged, there is so much I want to do, things I want to see and things I need to experience. I can't be with you because to fully discover myself I have to cut all ties with everything and everyone around me. I want to go knowing no one is waiting for me, that I am free to yo out and discover me and not have you here wondering where I am, what I am doing or I am with. It would not be fair to both of us. John I love you so much and will always care about you but if I don't do this I am going to regret this for the rest of my life.

I know making this decision by myself is selfish, but you must understand the severity of the matter if it means saying goodbye to you. I want you to move on, live, find someone else and fall in love again. I know this is might be hard for you to understand but you have to trust me its better off this way, if we got married it would be plagued by doubt, depression and discontent. I will question my happiness, my worth and how much value I could add to your life in my state.

I would understand if you hate me, I don't want you to but if you have to move on please do. You have added so much to my life and helped me grow emotionally, I will always be greatful. I hope I was also able to enrich your life as well, you will always have a special place in my prayers and I wish you nothing but good fortune in your life. With a heavy heart I say goodbye, and I hope you will be able to love again because you are a special man and deserve to be happy. I am about to embark on a journey to free my soul and show my greatness, its only right you do the same.

Sincerely



I'm thinking of writing a reply, probably will when I remember.