Is being good worth it? Does it really pay to be good? It’s really hard being good, not a lot of opportunities for the good. Have you ever been at your wits end praying to God for something for so long that it feels like He can’t hear you and you stuck. I’m there right now, been here for a long time. They say He is never late and I know this. They say what He has for you is much better than what you could have asked for, I know this too. Yet it’s like just so hard when you waiting and seeing the evil thrive (like I know I’m proverbs somewhere it’s says ill gotten wealth would be given to the just. Have you prayed for God to answer just the little things, have you had hope only for it to be torn out of you yet you hope again and again and again thinking, hoping, praying that this is it. My time to bat, my time to shine only for you to be disappointed. I’ve listened and been happy for people when I hear their testimonies praying to be next up but still i wait. The unfair treatment, things meant for you that others have stolen, the pain, the mental anguish. Sometimes you can’t buy wonder if God really is on His throne and watching all this go on. Why are the evil people thriving, what’s happening? How can He see what’s going on and yet be so silent, it’s like He doesn’t care or He can’t see. Doesn’t it hurt Him to see His children in pain? Yearning for Him to come through like He always does on a chariot of fire? Well one thing is He is on His throne and He does see and hear everything. We will never know why He does what He does because His ways are not our ways. He is not man that He would think as we do, he is The God go Abraham, Isaac and Jacob. Our Father, my Father. I know He sees and He hears me, I will not give up. I am tired mentally drained but what if I’m already at the finish line and need just 2 more steps to cross it? I could be at the beginning of the middle but I’ll still Serve Him. I do know I’m at the end, it’s that set time for blessings. My testimony is here, that moment is now. I am walking in it, I am living proof that July 2022 will not end without a very big blessing and today is the 26th. It’s my time, my family’s times. I will pray much harder when I get it than I did to get it because it’s really easy to forget our Heavenly Father when everything is going well.
