What is happiness? A wise young lady just told me “everyone says think of what will make you happy in 5 years. Yet no one says think of what will make you happy right now. Doesn’t take a lot to make you happy right now”. That is so true, not all of us can think of 5 years. I trust God with that, but right now what could you be doing to make you and others happy. You can’t please everyone but a smile, a hug or a shoulder to cry on could go a long way in changing someone else’s life. Don’t be a people pleaser but be a helper to others(you don’t know, you could be entertaining angels). Life is funny, confusing and scary all at the same time. Picking a wife, choosing a career, buying a house all could be scary because if not done right you will regret it. I’m a thinker so I will overthink everything and end up in a funk. Thinking is what I do, trusting is hard to do. But we gotta at the end of the day (I don’t think I should use but to start a sentence but I did). I ain’t talking benefit of the doubt trust, I’m talking deep trust that if broken could open up some deep wounds. Have you ever feared making a mistake that you would end up regretting. I’ve been trusted with so much by a lot people and I wonder why? It’s crazy what if I’m not the person you expect me to be or I change from who I am and end up being the thing you’ve feared all your life. Trusting God should be a no brained but it does get hard. Have you gotten to the place where you ask “I’m helping all these people but who helping me?”. Like I said a trusting God should be a no brainer but sometimes it is a test. He has everything planned out for your good but to get there, go through the highs and lows is crazy but we must. Pick up your cross daily and get with the program. I see life as a beautiful thing, every experience we get is to help out someone else. De omnibus dubitandum (everything should be doubted) is a statement I love but it will kill you if you live by it (shout out to bill Hansen for teaching me that in civilization class). You will live in a constant fear being let down by the ones you hold so highly. Sometimes I feel like taking a break from life but we can’t. We can disappear but don’t expect those around us to wait for us to return, the worst thing we can ask of someone is to put their life on hold as we try to sort out ours.