Cant do err thing

Its funny that people were made with faults(if u wanna call em that). Have u ever thought of how we would be if we could do err thing by ourselves(that's like putting on ur socks n saving the world type crazy). Its cool though it'll b boring, cuz peep its fun when u have to work with other to make up what u lack. Funny how things change whn u all high n mighty, n then u realize u need help. I love the statement it doesn't make u any less of a man to walk through a door that had been opened for you. Funny thing is it takes a man to walk through a door that was opened for him(sorry kinda dwelled too deep on an issue there), cuz u need help dnt make u weak or a loser it shows ur a human being. If we dnt gt help from others how would we learn, how would we grow its fun learning stuff u dnt knw, bt whats even mre fun is working togthr on smethn. It brings out the best in me, espcly when we all doing different parts. Makes me wanna do the best i can so i can look good infront of the others(let me take this tym to tell sme ppl [eg maya] that i do not punctuate properly or speak properly here cuz i lyk it as it is, its unofficial but smart, its laxed no ancy big words n a couple commas err now n then with the occasional periods t's all i need[tongue out]). Think bout it help inspires us, it gives hope, its creates bonds its a nice feeling, To help sme1 dnt make u look soft eitther, especially when puttin a smyle on sme1s face is involved.  Always remeber sme ppl dnt help till they are asked, so dnt b scared ask n if ur told no their loss. Theyve jst lost out on one heck of a bonding moment they coulda had with u. Nywho im gone, jst a lil smthn smthn to gt y'all pondering over the festive periods, imma keep posting whenever i gt the chance. Catch y'all in 2012.(Shout out to all them who read this, jst checkd the stats n yo this shit is read all over the world. Russia, canada, n a whole lotta places. I never knw but wow im honored that ppl r reading this, hopefully im helping y'all in sme way as u read this[thats y i strtd it in the first place, if all was fair in the world only lyk 10 ppl will b reading this but im real blessed that its way more] peace im out, off to bed).

4 my ambition

Beautiful music, painting pictures that be my vision. I would never lose site of my ambition, because i don't just dream i do. I don't just see i emulate. Ive not just been given a life, ive been given purpose. When my chance comes i will use it because chances r easier to let go of than miss,im in this till d death of me and will command the attention of others for 1 good reason and another... Law

Tv on the radio

Never make some one a priority when you are only an option. Been a bit since I dropped sme knowledge(I dnt blog, it's gay) so I peep the first statement of this post somewhere n I'm lyk I need to wryte bout that, cuz it hits sme ppl giv too much n get too lil in return(nt jst in relationshipsbut friendships m all that jazz, even work). Never giv ur all to sme1 who gives u anything from second best and below, ur wasting ur lyf n ignorn sme1 else who wnts to giv u their all. U cnt blame the other person though, n urself nt 4 the want of tryin(I've officially crossed over to anthr form of English). The other person may not see u in that light, solve on n find sme1 who will . Cuz lyf is bout being happy, sad, depresed, funny n a whole lottat things. N the only way ur going to enjoy it r with ppl who wish nthn but good(n the occasional evil) on u, this is sme1 who givs u their all, a person who eats cake with u that y'all saw at a bus stop but was so tempting that u had break it into a small safe piece n get down(yeah I did that so). All I'm sayin is when u look back at ur lyf do u wanna smile or b lyk if only I had fne with this dude instead of the douche that treated me lyk shit. It's fun when ur pickin urself up from a fall knwnn u cn tell sme1 n ul laf at it later on(every thing will b lafd at later on, it's the feeling of gettn over it, moving on n learnin from it that helps u do that). Ur lyf is precious, u myt nt knw that so I'm telling u now. Look through it friends measure how much they giv bak( yeah n to clear the air the nxt prsn to ask if effiong n I r brothers will b lied to severly) if u ain't gtn the same thing bak I ain't sayin leave the persn jst guage how much u giv bak(woah dint think it'll b this long) cuz in the end when I faint il need a place for my head to knw I'm not crawling in vain n sme1 will b their to take everything from the inside to prevent me from bcmn numb, which means I'm one step closer to finding somewhere I belong(I dnt care what any1 says that was beautiful[lyk wat I did there, I linked titles of sme of my fav linkin park songs. Smart ryte] but read it well n put urself as I n imgine all the scenarios n I promise u when get to smewhere i blng u will smile). Ohio

Announcement public service

What makes u happy, have u ever been made to play the bad guy your whole lyf n want out. R u tired of helping ur friends or family by playing the bad guy. It's fun to make them happy but not t the expense of urs, cuz u being happy should matter most to u, n those around u should understand u cnt go outta ur way all the tyme to help them cuz u r a person too. Ur needs should b put unto consideration too, very fee ppl have experienced happiness in this world. It ain't bout being the most popular, richest, spoiling ur kids, or breaking ur back all the tyme for some1 it's bout being content. Being able to look at ur lyf n say that u r happy with what u got n not wanting to swap it 4 anything. It's fun to sit in first class, own a rolex n have a black card, but its eternally satisfying to own a swatch given to u by some1 special, sit in coach with the fam n have a good tyme, shop on a budget b get to bake with ur kids or friends. A car is cool but walking makes the discussion a whole lot better n longer(my hoody is sick) a smile can make u at peace a ferrari can make u happy 4 a bit. It's funny when u think of it simple things r the best, or the best things in lyf r free. A free hug is wonderful or a smile, a joke a bit of stupidity with ppl u love would get u far, it's those kinda things that make long lasting memories that make u wanna live forever or appreciate ur friends. A fool would trade all that for wealth, some poor ppl dnt want money go ask em some jst want to b cared for a hug, a pair of sneakers, some home made pie(I wunt mind a bit of banana cream pie ryte now)or treat em lyk ur the same(heck u r the same) it's easy to b happy in lyf n yet it's hard to stay happy, ur not meant to b all the time but of we rnt meant to b sad alll the tym either, the world is hard that's y we have our defenses up, but let ur gaurs down eery bow n then. Yes ppl will hurt u but that makes us stronger n appreciate those that never will(the 1s that give us hope n stuff) u live once y not spend it happy, give to those who don't have, learn cuz every1 has smthn to teach u, n always make sure ur happy before u make others happy, cuz ur lyf will b false n not urs if y do that n always remebr I lyk being given gifts(n if u complement me il answer in in an egotistic way) n live simple so u can see errors clearly, cus living complex makes it difficult to differentiate the good from the bad.

Growing up

How do u know when u grown, no 1 can b completely grown. Every1 has got their flaws but once u got a good number of a couple things that shows u grown n stuff then u good. Stuff lyk sticking to what I said, backing up ur friends, taking Care of u n ur own, knowing when to give advice n doing it properly. Thinking maturely(not that a stupid thoughts every now n then hurts) y do ppl mess things up 4 ppl when they r lyk happy n stuff, y is it then ppl turn to dr. Phils n start advicing, that ain't cool. Knowing when to give a hug n a smile, or how to turn a smile upside down, or leave a person alone to their thoughts. Smtmes no words r needed, ur actions can do d damage or fix the patch. N ppl 4gt bridges can b broken n gaps can reopen(a Sean law original{hey G}), n loved 1 can hate u, wyle enemies can end up as fam. All this is a lot to deal with so growing up makes u able to deal with all this in ways were we take the best choices. D ability to not let ur emotions cloud ur judgement is hard, standing up to ur enemy is hard but standing up to ur friends is harder. That is 1 of the true tests of courage, n that shows grown-up-ness(haha). Every1 grows up, but not every1 is mature.

Tangerines

A lot of us need to slow down. We r living too fast 4 r own good, it's lyk having champagne taste with beer pockets. U r gonna get there but y'all need to take it easy, I was having this battle in my head a wyle ago. I was able to make sense of the situation n handle bizness, cuz if u live to fast u dnt knw what ur gonna do or where ur gonna end up. N u gonna end up trampling on people as u go. Real talk lyf is best lived quiet, u dnt gotta brag bout what u got or nthn n live good n quiet without ppl disturbing u n stuff. It's easy to want stuff but it ain't easy to need stuff. Most ppl end up satisfying their wants n not their needs(stupid much)[lyk how I need a bluetooth mouse n want socks. Paul u get this ryte{n dude u left without a wisper}]. people buy benzes n sleep in em cuz they homeless, I felt stupid after arguing with this dude who dint pay 4 a room n was sleeping on the floor n said as long as he good. Flash forward a week later he spent it all on shit n he broke  begging for meal tickets n things. (I've seen ppl borrow lyk half a mil to do it big in the clubs, get some of that champagne n things. Shiit imma celebrate ur stupidity with u bit I ain't gonna get infected) there will b tyme where u can do that with the excess change that'll be rolling in n things but we gotta b smart bout it. Treat urself every now n then but do it smart, make it lyk 1 want. To 6 needs n get them out the way, stay sharp out there ppl. 
Ps: stalker Deytukkrjawbs ( yeah u need to watch south park to get this)
N ignore the randomness of the title. First thing to pop in my head

My day

5.....4.....3....2....1 I counted down with my stalker who was the first person to wish me happy bdae(after my mum shes always first, look out mum ppl r trying to beat u next year). As I got older n wiser(definately still hot, in my old age) but it was fun, Mary,semira n faryda r lyk the coolest ppl in d world. They made today great. Although uneventful n stuff it was really nyc, scratch that it was awesome n I guess that was the event, spoke to mum, chilled with 3 stupidly cool people it should b criminal, then went n chilled with Lambo, Barigha, khan, eddy, n in all that effiong remembered n sent a shout out. Even d Igbo fool onyeka sent some love, after that spoke to lolia on skype which was so much fun although I was tired n slept off(sorry it was 5am) today has been cool,u couldn't take nothing away from it, although jojo is gonna get intouch with me even if it means shes gotta fly to Nigeria. But really it's ppl who made this day special 4 me, it's been a nyc day I've been smiling all through, I dnt lyk big parties n all that, I prefer small things with only ppl I'm cool with that made it all the more special, I really am happy bout the ppl in my lyf, those influencing n will never know. N those who play small n vital roles, it's cool n as I grow older il look back n smile when I think of these ppl n stuff.happy bdae to me n stuff( n paul aka pawul u can make up 4 this with stuff from downtown homie)

Dead......

What does it mean to die? Has it hit u that death could be more than a just u lyk dying. U could die on the inside n still b alive, u could lose the person in u. The thing is dying on the inside is ur empty, ur souls missing u lack ur very essence u lose purpose n direction. U become broken, n when u die on the inside u can never fully recover, u lose a part of u or a whole sector of u. If u lose everything u r at ur most fragile, d ppl around u n what u go through at that point will decide what u gonna become. Who d new u wil b, what ur persona's gonna b bout. Dying on the inside is a steady breakdown of ur soul, n d happy around u ain't enof to help u fix it. To die on the inside means u think a lot n when u get to that point ur ability to deal with things is gone ur crashin n falling n the worst thing is u go through this alone. The worst kinda this is when u can't identify the problem, when u knw smthn or a whole lotta things r wrong but u can't do nothing bout it. D only help u can get is sme1 who survived this n found out where the problem came from, but the thing is u can't truly b helped cuz evey1s got a different problem. Similar in some ways but different, no 1 truly knws how to fix it 4 u. All them books they charge 4 that can fix u n stuff is fake, if u survive smthn lyk this trust me u gonna do it 4 free. What it is, u cnt xplain what's going on to ppl n eventually the quiet dsnt help anymore so all u wanna do is b by urself doing ur thing. It ain't nice being on ur own n most ppl can't just shit up n giv u a hug, that helps with a hug that not only lasts long bit allows u to b at peace with urself. Those can make u cry because at that moment there is the realization that things r never gonna b d same but u hav ppl there to support u in mute is comforting cuz going through this alone is not nyc. But survival is a must so u gotta pick a purpose that is good n noble enof n hope one day that leads u to a good direction. 

A part of me i dnt wanna lose

Sme1 said graduation is the beginning of life. So u telling me once I graduate from uni my lyf real begins, I dnt want it to if that's the case. Peep so all I went through in uni is 4 what, a place is only as good as the people u knw. N 4 me the ppl I'veet n what we've done together, those r priceless. The highs the lows the ups down n what not if u will those r really sme priceless moments n graduation if u ask me is not the beginning it's not a reward, it's more of an acknowledgement that that part of ur lyf really happened n that is the moment that tops it all off. I ain't graduated yet but I knw the type of flash backs have when  graduating cuz I have em ryte now n more is coming. If there's 1 thing I can take from my all this I learnt to adapt. It's this point on ur lyf u cut out the useless people those who gonna tie u down n stuff n keep the cool positive, most likely to succeed a lot(notice I used most cuz every 1 is lykly to succeed). I dnt wanna lose memories cuz I've been stalked by the coolest stalker ever, I've met ppl u aunt blue is who they iz without knowing them, ive learnt a lot, heck I'm living n I lyl living the stress n err thing involved. Makes me know I'm alive n going through all this so I can get the skills I need to b great, so a graduation should be called a new chapter in lyf not a beginning, n it's definately not the end of a chapter in lyf it's just the final moment that makes all that happened real.(effiong u douche congrats u fool. Where is u been looking 4 u lyk crazy)

All it's cut out to be

Do u give advice? Or are u 1 who likes to be given advice, anywho if u r giving advice u gotta b real careful with the delivery, cuz at that very moment u bcome n architect helping sme1 rebuild their mind, at that point u can mess re person up or set em up good. The problem is sme ppl should not give advice(go find what ur good at),I've seen ppl take advice from all sorts n in different manners n some of em is bad. On the reals u never ever ever ever  put a person down when giving advice, u they've done something wrong theirs another way of telling em they've messed up. Whenever I advice anybody I make em knw this what i feel n the final decision is on them always has n always will b. They should pick what they feel best n whatever happensa back u up. That's what I feels beat cuz u advising the dude n not making the decision 4 him n he ain't gonna have to always rely on u. Y do most relationships fail, simple cuz the couples use a middle man instead of sorting it out themselves, that would be easier n if u iz in a relationship doesn't it make more sense to complain bout ur partner to ur partner than to some1 else. Only when u try at first n no result can u bring in some1, giving good advice shouldn't b forced; u shouldn't do it cuz u wanna knw what's going on or just feel u r in control of ur lyf n can help any1 outta any sitch. N even if u can advice good u gotta do it cuz u wanna help n protect the person, there some ppl in my lyf I can't stand to see frown or hurt it's them I wanna help or ppl that r good but bcuz of sme stuff there going through, they r funding harder than usual to get a grip of things. Advicing or giving advice is deeper than the surface level of what it looks lyk, serious thought should b put in it especially on the part of the advicer

The kid in me

Have u lost the kid in u or is it still there, that kid in u could make a difference in a lot of ways. If u ask me maturity ain't letting go of the kid in u, but cutting out the bad parts of the kid. Ain't u noticed that only a kid can have that innocent pure kind of fun almost all the tyme, with not a care in the world lyf just breezes by 4 them till they get older. It's ok to let that kid out every now n then, let loose get ur head empty n breathe again n 4 that split 2nd everything is ok. Ppl say u r mature when u deal with stuff, a kids mind is needed in this process(at least that's what I think)[let me break it down] peep this sitch; ur waiting 4 a flight it's lyk a whole lotta hours late, how will u deal with this. Sme dudes get pissed n start bitchn bout everything. Sme gonna get angry n blame every1, sme gonna take it out on sme1, heres what I do I take d smallest ounce of stupidity from the situation manipulate that. U dnt get peep, I just imagine some silly shit n joke around with that, or I find sme1 lyk me n we do stupid stuff n joke around n stuff when d plane comes lyk 6 hours later I'm blessed, I've been laughing n stuff the most I can get out of the flight is being tyred(n a lil cramp). But it helps, u dnt get angry cuz u knw u cam walk away from sme1 wanting to fight or a stressful situation  knowing u gonna turn that anger into positive energy through laughter n stupidity. That can b d difference between acting without thought or being calm n thinking through a situation. Being a kid is a way of simplifying things that seem complex, I think being a kid has some perks to it n controlling the good aspects of it is maturity. Yeah that's what I think n if u dnt lyk it get off my blog. Hehe

One thoughtless moment

Do u know what could happen in a moment if thoughtlessness,(yes it is a word[I think]) u could throw everything away. That moment u let ur emotions take full control n act on them alone could spell doom. U can throw a lot away by doing that, u could get suspended from school n throw 5 months of a semester away with only 5 days to go. U could lose I'd family by going to jail, get kicked outta work n all that. Not cool, lyf is too short to throw it away just lyk that. Nothing is worth throwing a lot of hardwork away, trust me. The ppl u meet that r being stupid, take dealing with em as a test n 1 u get one of lyfs greatest rewards from, how to deal with ppl. Think bout it the more ppl u learn to deal with d further u can go in lyf, cuz there are those who can test u for real but be easy with em, get through them and advance. Stuffs too real to lose focus ryte now, so stay sharp out there n if u wanna console urself call it being d bigger person, but if u really wanna know wat ur getting from it, it's called experience n thats a no brainer, all the wisdom in the world can't give u xprrience. So take on ur challenge whoever he/she/it/they r n get through.

a song...........

I needed to do this n my ipod wunt cut it. So im listnn to a song by rise againt; satellite n the lyrics hit me, n as I decoded them it hit me some things can’t b understood if u think. U gotta let them hit u, just peep at these lyrics: gotta warn u I really dint xpress myself as much as I wanted too did the best I coud ryte now

you can’t feel the heat until you hold your hand over the flame(U cnt gt nothn from a distance u gotta get closer, u cnt b loved from a distance go in n b hugged feel it to get it)

you have to cross the line just to remember where it lay(if u r truly doing ur best u wud knw when to stop, u wunt have to keep checkin cuz u in total control)

you won’t know your worth now, son, until you take a hit(u will stand up n fight when u get hit, n prove ur worth. u might feel useless but trust me u will b missed when ur gone. So stop undermining urself, n dnt worry ul prove urself when ur time comes so dnt sweat it n never try to please others.Live to please urself n others)

and you won’t find the beat until you lose yourself in it(u wanna enjoy a song get lost in it dnt focus on to much if its gonna talk to u it will u cnt force it, u really wanna dance dnt think just go with the flow of the song)

you can’t fill your cup until you empty all it has(u gotta b empty to fill urself, dnt go into anything feeling smart go in as n empty book so u can get learned[used a big word there]cuz the wise knw u can learn from anything n any1]

you can’t understand what lays ahead,if you don’t understand the past(those who fail to learn their past tend to repeat its mistakes[so reflect on the past to determin ur future but dnt dwell too much on it or else ull get stuck there])

You'll never learn to fly now till your standing at the cliff.(ul never learn if u fear failure, think bout this failure is learning so keep at it[I havnt failed ive only found 10,000 ways it wunt work]so get off ur scared ass n take a risk)

and you can’t truly love until youve given up on it(Dnt go looking for love, let it hit u[cuz if u do it wunt b as special as when it catches u off guard]trust me that feeling, we’ll all just gotta zprience it 4 ouselves, n those who give up on it feel it the most cuz they have been without love they havnt that hole that has to b filled)

Truly a beautiful song (dnt care if I sound soft now) this just hits my soul. Check out the rest of the song rise against satellite. Jst listn to  it, It might b too loud 4 u but it will get to u listen with ur sou n not ur brain(gay & poetic, but kinda cool) this is nyc im nice ryte now I can write like 2 pages on this right now. Let this song hit u imma leave u with the rest of it n u imagine what it means, u decipher it n use that to move urself n positively control urself be inspired:

We'll sneak out while they sleep

And sail off in the night

We'll come clean and start over the rest of our lives

When we're gone, we'll stay gone

Out of sight, out of mind.

It's not too late,

We have the rest of our lives.

The rest of our lives

The rest of our lives

Because we won't back down

We won't run and hide

Yeah cuz these are the things that we can't deny

I'm passing over you like a satellite

So catch me if I fall

That's why we stick to your game plans and party lines

But at night we're conspiring by candlelight

We are the orphans of the Amerikan Dream

So shine your light on me (shine your light on me)

No we won't back down

We won't run and hide

Yeah cuz these are the things that we can't deny (shine your light on me)

I'm passing over you like a satellite

Cuz these are the things that we can't deny now

This is a life that you can't deny us now

Who do u call family

What is family. It's just like home, home ain't the house  u live in  it's where u live(role  with me here). If u think family is blood then ur mistaken, take it from me family ain't blood. Lets call blood a coincidence that we got the same blood flowing through ou genes. Family r those who r around u on the thick n thin of it all, those who wanna genuinely help u. Those who always got ur back on impulse, family describes those that r close to u n not those ur connected to by blood or stuff. I got me a few family members that ain't blood(shout out to big sis[yes g this means u]n I prefer em to quite a lot of my family members). Every1 needs family, u cnt go through life without em, u need people around that u love for the perks n their flaws.

      Cuz to b family is all we really got at the end of it all, cuz we knw theyr loyal. They hold u down regardless, dnt care what tym it is they always got u. Worry when u down, sad when u sad, pick u as they r rising, n look to u when they r falling. Family is deeper than blood n a harder bond holds em than anything chemists can cook up, with that aside their love guides us n keeps us strong cuz when u think bout it, u never wanna let them down for no reason. Il tell u the reason its cuz we hurt ourselves when we hurt them, cuz they bcome a part of us. Filling a void we never knw we had, but most importantly they r a sign of the hope we should have for ppl in this world, cuz if they exist the world is definately full of cool ppl(not all but hey if all ppl were family wunt b as special as it is)

A different kinda power

Is it true that the source of our weakness iz(not are[I use slangs but can still speak english])  our loved 1s, or r they really the source of r true potential.

    (trying paragraphs) Tell me u ain't never pushed urself to the limit for sme1. Regardless of how much of a douche bag they r we feel obliged to help, we can't stop caring even if we want too. Most ppl tend to do better or work harder when a loved 1 is involved. They make us work our butts off, hustle real hard to get them stuff n this may b looked at as selfish on their part but is it really? That feeling u get when u done did smthn for a loved 1 is priceless. That's true happiness knowing that u helped make some1 u truly care bout that much hapier(new word)(especially if they r a smiler or hugged[good heavens if they r both. U get a true smile that takes flows through ur body makes u happy, or a hug that makes u 4gt bout everything n 4that brief moment ur being hug ur life is perfect] good stuff)

     Life should b bout making those around u happy so u can b happy too, my depression is healed lyk that(make sure my closest smiler [the original smiler Aka my stalker] is happy)cuz the front I put up around most ppl comes down around her. sme dude d other day thought I was never stressed or depressed, n all I did was smile cuz I'm down 85% of the tym. Enof of that back to what I was saying the power of helping is strong, it gives u a new found strength n makes u feel good bout urself. Helping 1 person aday chases the shadows away(i will look so cool in a red hoody) ppl ain't weaknesses they r strengths n the more the love the more powerful the strength. So dnt feel u dnt need ur those u care bout near u, cuz they empower u. Ppl say they hold back when their l1s(stressful ryting loved1) r around but contrary to this belief u tend to go all out when u r protecting sme1. 

War! Huh-yeah what is it good for absolutely nothing

Free ur heart n show ur greatness

What makes u great, it's not killing a man, being rich, being feared nah those r nice in theory but what makes us great is overcoming our demons. We all have demons n we r in a constant battle with them, the outcome is what makes us great. Heros' r the 1s who forgive but keep in the back of their minds cuz the foolish neither forgive nor forget, the naive forgive n forget, the smart forgive but dont forget. Don't let hatred hold ur heart or fuel u cuz then u r blinded n not walking ur own path. Free ur heart b show ur greatness, feel hurt but move on. Conquer ur inner demons cuz they're our demons n we r not theirs, so by right we should be in control. So stop shivering in the corner n take control of ur life, n dnt go out in the world fueled by hatred chasing revenge cuz then our demons r controlling us. The ability to forgive n move on is 1 of the single greatest powers we have as humans n trust me we don't use it enough. So forgive n live on n allow the other person to live their life cuz to ask for forgiveness means u want to move on n stop being hunted by ur past. To grant it is to set a soul free n that's truly being great.

The power of a song.

Does music move you, make u wanna cry, relate with you or reads your situation. Music is the best therapist(yeah it is). I've just downloaded Tony hawks pro skater 1 soundtrack n I got a sudden rush of flashbacks(that's proper english by the way don't like it sue me)[I'm almost in tears now (not really thats kinda gay),listenn(haha easier way  of ryting listening) to make it stop by rise against]. Remembering n my brothers playing it for the first time on our ps1(thanx plenty Aunty Tokunbo) it was my bday, Tobi n Jide played first. I remember reading the book n screaming Tobi do this n that cuz jides' game skills had not developed then(he still sucks now, n I'm still d best though) but it was a simpler time, happy time(we fought a lot but we were still united)[I have a pretty sick family]. I'm just so happy now listnn to rise against ryte now all thanks to Tony hawks pro skater n what it did for us back then, dint realize till now( I miss my child hood, thanx to every 1 in my life back then, u rock). Music I use when I'm depressed, confused, sad, happy. Tell me music doesn't get to u n u r soulless in my book. Music is a passion of mine often has stopped me from being stupid, the power of words with a beat in the background flowing through you. It's power is something else, the power of a song on some1s life is a beautiful n scary thing at the same time. It makes u think if it was used for evil, but with darkness comes light n with hatred comes love n with ugly comes beauty(a Seun Ogunlesi original) so let music use u, encourage u, strenghen ur will, make u strong, n fight that battle going on in u, cuz it is better to die on ur feet than live on ur knees. Remember if u get it ryte the power of a song can b a beautiful thing to behold. Endgame by rise against best album I've listened to this year. I hope y'all out there xperience what i am xperiencing ryte now. Leave me b with my songs.

Every disappointment is a blessing. or is itsmthn we say to console ourselve?

Life is unfair, is it really or us it something people say when they don't want to blame themselves for what's happening to them. Every disappointment is a blessing in disguise where is this blessing it's like it never comes(cuz I 4 1 ain't never realized it. Heck I try to search for the silver lining or the good in every disappointment). Should we really be disappointed, doesn't it go against the every thing happens for a reason rule( guess that's y we human) it contradicts itself.(trying to ease my seriousness so ul drop a moment of madness quote every now n then) y do we get disappointed cuz we know there is a probability that it may bot happen so why, why do we get disappointed(have u ever noticed in south park something bad always happens to butters n he is too naive to notice{classic}[I need to join the south park team or make my own cartoon it will b sick]). Some people shouldn't get disappointed the'r too nice or too cute, I'm a pretty mean person but I've come to notice I'm a very lucky person( I barely have to read to pass, I get most of the stuff I want, I set some stupid standards for myself n I keep to them n I aunt getting paid or nothing yet so yeah I'm lucky sme ppl work harder than I do, deserve stuff cuz I dnt take care of my stuff I'm a professional klutz(yes new word) u drop everything(including me) it's not like I don't look when u walk n stuff it just happens, but I make sure o take Care of other ppls stuff cuz if I break any of my things it doesn't get me(dunno y like ever) but other ppls stuff u can't destroy just smthn I can't do. I dnt believe we should be disappointed n if we do we should not be for too long, one of the greatest quotes I've read(been obsessed with famous and motivational quotes[dnt mean I aint cool]) is "what I've learnt about life is; it's goes on" so live on. Is every disappointment a blessing in disguise or another blessing u dint realize(a Seun Ogunlesi original[really dunno how I came up with that but that sounds so cool). So go grab the next blessing, till my next post buy me stuff n send pls dhl(there's a nice 64g 4g iPod touch with my name on it). N phone still phoneless but might get 1 2mrw dnt mind to though(ignore this had to write it to satisfy one of the many personalities in me). Till the next post smile when I'm thought of it helps me(I'm selfish like that). Tralalalala

Sunday, February 27, 2011 8:51 PM

Who r we really?

Perfection is a perception of reality. We can't achieve it but use it to try n set our lives straight. It's ok not to be ok, swag should be felt by u first n not others first. Theirs nothing wrong with you because ur being who you really are. So u like music that ain't accepted by your friends heck who says their music is acceptable, dress to kill but feel good doing. Don't do nothing for no one u if u don't wanna, do what makes you you. Do you in the way only you can which makes you stand out like you should for all the right reasons, because 20years from now it's the things we did not to that we will dwell on more than the things we did. So dream and be proud to express it and live free cuz there is nothing wrong with who you are. So be true to who you are.

A hug and a smile (N the 1st 1 goes up)

A hug and a smile

I am one of the very few people who knows vat a hug is and I'm proud of that. I dnt take my hugs for granted anymore, tell me it doesn't make u feel better when u meet some1 n get hugged(not some social hug but 1 with love behind it, 1 that makes u 4gt the cares of the world n u might feel like shit at that point in time but at that moment u feel like it's ok u dnt want that hug to end). There some ppl we meet in this life and their job is to smile, I have like 3 of those in my life(yes stalker ur 1) Smtms I frgt how to smile, heck I've been sadder(I made it an official word) this year (at an almost alarming rate) but whenever u see a smiler(d dictionary is gonna have this by next year n the definition is going to b those who have mastered the art of smiling[sounds educated enough]) they bring out that smile in u, u dnt knw y or how but ur smiling n u dnt wanna stop n then a hug at that moment takes u places. Like d high ppl get from a drug or smoking this does that sometimes it should be criminal. A hug and a smile go a long way so Maya dnt loose ur smile iite. I think that's it 4 now till d next time i see stuff on my iPod that I supposedly wrote